When the Light Dims

I remember when I loved to study my bible, lead bible studies, and tell people about Jesus.  I thrived on it, and got life from it.

Then I got married and had three children.

My energy level depleted.

My time depleted.

My already natural fatigue easy body got more fatigued.

My light dimmed.

Throw in the fact that I’m also a natural ‘messy’ but have to run a household…and desire to run it well.

Oh yea, and teach and train my children for their souls eternal purpose.

Heh.

Help?

Anyone?

Someone?

I  need a match.

P.S.  This could all be hormonal. {ahem}

30 Coffee Talks on “When the Light Dims”

  1. Just popping in to remind you, you're not alone :) Praying for all Mommies tonight!
    Christy Peffly´s last [type] ..Another personal giveaway!
    Christy Peffly´s last [type] ..Another personal giveaway!

  2. Laura says:

    ((hugs)) I totally know how you're feeling.
    Laura´s last [type] ..WFMW- Meal Planning I Can’t Forget!
    Laura´s last [type] ..WFMW- Meal Planning I Can’t Forget!

  3. You are so sweet to share this in such a public place. Know that we all go through this type of thing, I call it a season. It's not easy, I tend to have seasons more like the feeling of zero fellowship. The Lord is faithful to show me where I get my fellowship, with Him all throughout the day. Remember that you are sharing Christ, in being a wife and mommy you are sharing Christ with the three little ones He has entrusted in your care. You are always heading up a bible study in the way you live you life. For our children to see Christ all the time and to see how much we lean on Him in all things. They see when we fall and how Christ picks us up. How much more of a bible study would you like to lead? In meditation we gain our respec for the people who encrouaged and challanged us to hide the inspired word of God in our hearts when we were young. Medidtate on His word and enjoy the blessings around you. For everything there is a season. Please hold fast to the truths you know and draw your match from His box as it's the only one that has any chance of lighting your flame. *smile* Sincerely, Mommy of two little blessings & so much more!
    Mommy of two little´s last [type] ..Back On Track
    Mommy of two little´s last [type] ..Back On Track

  4. Know that you are not alone. We all have our times when we "feel" some way be that alone (such as myself) or like we are not witnessings. You are a Momma and you have been given the gift of being a living witness all the time. Embrace that blessing knowing that in everything you do you are showing your little ones how to rely upon the Lord. When you goof they see how you depend on Him to fix things, when things are going great they see how you praise God for His many blessings. You are always leading a bible study and always sharing Christ. You have been given an amazing career of being a Mommy. *big smile* Know that God is the only one who has the match that can light your flame once again. I bet that it just feels low and once you remember what your witness is you will see the fruits of your labor right in your own home. *smile* Focus on the Lord and meditate on the inspired word of God that you have study feverishly before. Then remember to stop to thank the Lord for the many people who encoruaged and challanged you to hide His inspired word in your heart over the years. *smile* Remember to pray always and allow your little blessings at your hips the joy of seeing the Lord grow you a little more through this. *smile* Sincerely, Mommy of two little blessings & so mcuh more!

  5. Erin M. says:

    Well, you just summed up my life too! Except the three children part :) Where are we supposed to get all the energy for everything?!
    Erin M.´s last [type] ..Smiles All Around
    Erin M.´s last [type] ..Smiles All Around

  6. Karina says:

    I rarely comment online, but I just had to for this post. Hang in there! When you have emptied yourself out, there is even more room for Him to fill you back up. You will see His strength in yourself. Hang in there, you're doing hard things and good work. And you'll be blessed for that. Take a warm bath, eat some dessert with coffee, and rest in the word. : )

  7. Sarah says:

    I think I am slipping into a season of fatigue… in fact I may be too tired to write anything else in this comment.
    Sarah´s last [type] ..Wordless Wednesday- Brain Freeze!!!
    Sarah´s last [type] ..Wordless Wednesday- Brain Freeze!!!

  8. You are in my prayers tonight. I have been where you are at not that long ago in fact…that was a big part of why I took my 6 week break from blogging in order to rest, refocus, reorganize and reconnect with God who did an incredible work in me and helped me to better under who I am as a ministering mom and wife, friend, and blogger. I am so grateful!! But everyone gets re-energized in differently…rest in Him tonight.
    Mary Joy @ Snapshots´s last [type] ..Loving my Body Inside &amp Outa visit to my Weight Loss Journey
    Mary Joy @ Snapshots´s last [type] ..Loving my Body Inside &amp Outa visit to my Weight Loss Journey

  9. Kim says:

    A long time ago, in another life, my mother sent letters out to a lot of different people, asking them what their definition of home was. The only letter I remember was Erma Bombeck's. She said that home was a place she would clean once the kids moved out. Very true, that!
    Kim´s last [type] ..The great bathroom update
    Kim´s last [type] ..The great bathroom update

  10. Marcy says:

    I think this is a season of life as women/mommy's. Rather than go out and witness to strangers, we are to lead our children to Christ. God has entrusted us with these precious little lives, and we need to nurture their souls for Jesus. That is a HUGE task!!!!! Don't beat yourself up for that, you are doing exactly what you are called to do!!! Once they are grown and your nest is empty, you will have that time once again to reach out to strangers and witness. But for now, for this short season of life, we are to pour into our little ones with everything we've got so we can give them back to the Lord. :)
    Marcy´s last [type] ..A cheap- fun- and easy way to redecorate your desk
    Marcy´s last [type] ..A cheap- fun- and easy way to redecorate your desk

  11. Talitha says:

    Hormonal?! Are you pregnant?!?! Or just PMSing? ;-)

  12. S Club Mama says:

    I've always wanted to lead a Bible study; I just don't know how – where to begin or what to say. I've always been shy like that. But I have the desire.
    S Club Mama´s last [type] ..grace
    S Club Mama´s last [type] ..grace

  13. Karen says:

    Having raised 3 children(all born in 37 months), I relate. Now that they're all married (ages 27, 28, 30), I reflect on the grace the Lord showered on my husband and me during those labor-intensive years. Every day before nap/quiet time and we'd sit down and read several books together. They saw Mommy laughing and being happy with them. In elementary school, our Bible study was reading thru the Bible for 10 minutes before the carpool came in the morning. Don't beat yourself up-you know who that message comes from! You are a daughter of the King of the Universe and He receives your efforts as fragrant offerings!

  14. Tiffany says:

    Girl…I so get it. Seriously. Before I was married I spent literally 2 to 3 hours a day at Starbucks studying my bible. Now I am lucky if I get 15 to 30 minutes to myself to read. aaaahh!
    Tiffany´s last [type] ..A Way To A Mans Heart
    Tiffany´s last [type] ..A Way To A Mans Heart

  15. Brooke Clarke says:

    You couldn't have put into words what I have been feeling any better! Thanks for sharing this.

  16. Stacy says:

    Girl – look beside you because there I am. I used to spend hours reading the Bible and I taught Sunday School and VBS and could not get enough of Him. Now, three kids and I am desperate for ten minutes in a corner by myself somewhere to be with Him without falling asleep!

    I so appreciate this post…it reminds me that I am not alone in my weariness.

    Your light may be feeling dim right now…but it brightened mine just a little. :)
    Stacy´s last [type] ..My Ella
    Stacy´s last [type] ..My Ella

  17. Kelly says:

    Every mom out there feels like a slave to the clock and "To Do" list. The layers of responsibility we face are countless, the expectations others have of us (and even the ones we put on ourselves) are so often impossible to achieve. But what do we do about it? What are the practical steps we can take, as women of God, as mothers, as daughters of a King to spend more time in His Word?

    I’ve been pondering the word 'invite' lately, especially in reference to where I am spiritually.

    There is a song by Watermark, titled 'Invade'. This song moves me to my core and I’m quite fond of playing it in the early morning, to – along with a strong cup of coffee – help me start my day.

    The lyrics describe the action of requesting God’s presence in one’s home; to walk the halls of the house…to teach what opens the doors…to illuminate the floors…to reach in and fill the home with His spirit. To me, the chorus depicts a physical effort of calling out for angels, mercy, freedom, all in the name of Jesus.

    I love this song because loving, serving and abiding in God are all deliberate deeds. Especially in the season of being a mom with young kids. What I'm trying to remember these days is that these deliberate deeds begin when I make the effort to call out to Him on a daily, sometimes hourly, basis.

    In a way, I find myself almost needing to present Him with a formal invitation to invade my home and my heart…It’s just that easy to push His presence to the back of my mind.

    And I think it all starts with that calculated risk (sometimes it feels like that anyway). It is that deliberate action of taking the step and inviting Him in. First. For just a few moments even, before the day begins.

    I also think that moms needs to make sure they are doing something for themselves every day. Something active. I started running last year and just finished my fourth half-marathon and am training for a full marathon. Running revolutionized my life as a wife and as a mother…and also as an individual just trying to serve my God with all my heart.

  18. Heathahlee says:

    Yes, hormones DO have something to do with it. I'm too tired to write anything else. :D

    Before I found out that I had a serious Vitamin D deficiency and my Thyroid was way off, I thought that I had just become lazy. REALLY lazy. Did you know that when your Vitamin D level is seriously low and your Thyroid is wacky you feel like doing nothing but lying around on the couch all day?

    I'm still there for the most part. Taking prescription strength Vit D has helped, but I still have to go to an endocrinologist to help with the thyroid thing. Praying I can fight through some of it just to be functional.

    So…when you find that match…share?
    Heathahlee´s last [type] ..I Love Clouds
    Heathahlee´s last [type] ..I Love Clouds

  19. Michelle says:

    It is SO GOOD to see what I feel put into words! Thank you so much for sharing your gift!

  20. jennifer says:

    I'll spare you all the encouragment of seeking the Lord because I know you know all of that and there comes a time when you are diligently seeking the Lord, doing everything he wants you to do and you still can't muster up enough energy or drive to be who you know you want to be…..I was that way after I finished nursing my last child. Maybe tmi for you but when my milk dried up I was a completely different person…couldn't get out of bed, didn't care about anything…continued to read my Bible and seek the Lord but couldn't get out of this deep pit….so…I won't go into all of my details because who cares, right? But…google estrogen dominance and see if you fit into some of that. When I did take birth control (which I don't agree with now :) ironic) it made me crazy because i already have too much estrogen …long story short….research natural progesterone and estrogen dominance…if it sounds like you I would suggest it….it has completely changed my hormones….I like me again! Did I mention that it's natural????

  21. Shawn says:

    Psalm 121:1-2

    I lift up my eyes to the hills-

    where does my help come from?

    My help comes from the Lord,

    the Maker of heaven and earth.

    This scripture was given to me as a gift. I have turned to it countless times in the last month or so. I can relate to where you are at. I hope this brings comfort to your spirit, that your help comes from a God that made the heavens and earth. Who is greater??? Go to HIM!!!

  22. I am currently doing Anne Graham Lotz's (Billy Graham's Daughter) bible study " Just Give Me Jesus" – I highly recommend it – it's a refreshing look at the book of John.

    When you have a quiet minute – listen to this 5 minute youtube by her:

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AVGIoeuC_uo

    At the end of the day, you simply need more of Jesus…you need more time being a Mary – just sitting at his feet. It's tempting to be Martha – doing doing doing – I think all moms in our season of life get stuck here…they'll be other seasons where we will find more time.

    But honestly, it's less about an amount of time and more about being connected. I remember your word for the year was "self-discipline". When the fire dies and the hunger for his word begins to fade – your self-discipline to stay in God's word and draw him near will carry you through. For it's often in these dry moments that he speaks clearly.

    Love you Sarah Mae – call me anytime if you need me!! I'd love to be a "match" for you!

    Courtney
    Courtney(WomenLiving´s last [type] ..How To Take Sermon Notes on Sundays
    Courtney(WomenLiving´s last [type] ..How To Take Sermon Notes on Sundays

  23. Christin says:

    Hmmm, hormonal huh? ;-)
    Christin´s last [type] ..Thirty-Two Weeks
    Christin´s last [type] ..Thirty-Two Weeks

  24. Mirinda says:

    Hormonal…hmm, an announcement coming our way?!? ;)

    Yep, I often need a match- let me just say that homeschooling has been like a TORCH for me :)
    Mirinda´s last [type] ..30 paintings in 30 days for 30!!
    Mirinda´s last [type] ..30 paintings in 30 days for 30!!

  25. julia says:

    (ok, huge comLuv symbols on the comments… but anyway)… i'm with you. i remember when i did beth moore's daniel study and i was sooooo enthralled with it and when the study stopped… i fell behind. love having the accountability… but i think part of it is summer. this summer has been so busy. not an excuse… but definitely makes it harder… perhaps i should go read instead of beingon the computer
    julia´s last [type] ..Say Cheese!
    julia´s last [type] ..Say Cheese!

  26. Sheryl says:

    I feel the same! My summer off is slipping by so quickly and things still need to be done and sometimes all I seem to do is nap…I have gotten away from Bible Study and exercise. I feel blah. You are not alone.

  27. Finally, someone put the two and two together about the hormone comment…searching for a follow up post. :)

  28. Rachel says:

    this is my first time on this site… just browsing around, and then i stumble upon this. are you sure you're not talking about me? i love it! AND the comment about being a natural messy. yup. i will be back! well, the coffee thing had me at the get go…

  29. [...] to give it a try! Ultimately, it’s God’s opinion that matters. Getting help during a time when my light was more of a dying ember has preserved my sanity. I can’t tell you how happy it makes me. Oh, and it makes my husband [...]

  30. Annie H says:

    I struggle with this also! God gently reminds me on a daily basis that I need to share Jesus with the people in my home first. It's a hard one for me as I always want to be working here and there for Him but He wants us working where He calls us.
    Annie H´s last [type] ..Our daily schedule
    Annie H´s last [type] ..Our daily schedule

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