Spirit Scars
Some days I would like to crawl right out of my skin and let my spirit rest while my body goes about the usual business.
Some days I wish I could replace my damaged spirit with one that has no scars…no gnawing, aching, easily ripped open scars.
So I pray.
But they don’t go away.
I plead.
But He says, “walk through.”
I don’t want to…it hurts too bad,
and I’m scared.
I don’t want to feel, and I don’t want to be vulnerable.
“Walk through.”
Isn’t there another way?
“No.”
I can’t do it.
“I can.”
Some days I think I will finally walk through.
Some day…
I so relate to these thoughts, this poem, this hurt.
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Beautiful post! I too pray someday the scars will heal. I'm also grateful for those scars because they make me who I am and I pray I can help others through a tough time because of where I've been. I rest in knowing with God by my side these scars WILL heal, I can do all things because of his strength and I know He has a purpose for all things in my life. Even the ugly scars!
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Your posts have really been speaking to my heart, but before I've had a chance to comment, my children have been dragging me away. So, for everything since at least "Unpopular" until now, let me say thank you, thank you, thank you…
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I love this and all I can say is amen.
I can completely relate!!
(Praying for you!)
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Well put. I'm taking a deep breath right now and hope you have time for one as well! Amazing how our experience can benefit our children as they grow, that's one thing I've been thankful for.
If your spirit had no scars, then it would need no rest and then in turn we would not be blessed by God in your life.
Your spirit is rested, well rested, just take the time to reflect and realize this!
I love you Sarah Mae!
smooches,
Larie
Going through the past month with my mom and her surgery and recovery, I have had similar conversations with Him. Mine have been mainly, "I don't WANT to go through this!" Along with the fear, it's been a lot of thinking that I'm still the baby and she's my Momma…she's supposed to be young and healthy forever…and we'll be raptured before I have to lose her. Every day that passes I realize that that scenario, at least her staying young forever, is not going to happen. Tomorrow is her 74th birthday, after all. But I know, even through all this, that no matter what happens, He is there with me. And to give me more hope, He is with HER, as well.
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I feel I have a hard time when I encounter moments of spiritual anguish yet must continue to move forward, no time to stop for crying and not sure why business….dinner needs to get done, kids need love, hubby will be home soon and the teen needs my listening ear….. I don't need my brokenness to get in the way of providing for the care and needs of my family. I long for what feels like spiritual pain to be healed so I can do a better work in my calling now. I just pray that even in that which I see as "the thing that need Gods fixing" I am providing as he created me to in all my imperfections. Just want to do good through Christ for my family and not scar anyone or any thing up from my need of healing.
So in saying that in too many words…. I can so relate to crawling out of my skin to find rest, renewal and restoration while my body gets the work done. Sounds like a great idea. Hugs, Angelia
So thankful that God renews our spirit daily!
The verse immediately came to mind where Paul was told, "My grace is sufficient for thee…"
I'm glad that grace is sufficient for us all—our hurts, our thorns, our scars. Thank God for grace!
And thank you, Sarah Mae, for your transparency. I suppose we all like to write happier, more uplifting pieces, but I think that it's posts like these that minister. Your telling of your experiences (good ones and not so good ones) help others like me to feel less alone with their scars. Thank you for that.
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Well put. So well put. I can't really even comment on it but my spirit feels this with you.
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Beautiful and I think we've all experienced the same!
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